Susmita Ghosh
Mera naam Susmita hain aur main 30 saal ki hoon. Originally Bardhaman, WB se hoon lekin born and raised in Hyderabad. Toh jab main 29 ki thi mere office mein ek ladka tha jo mujhe bohot pareshan karta tha. As in zyada kuch nahi, bass mujhe dekhne mere place pe aake apne doston se batiyata aur cafeteria, office ke baad ghar ki gali tak follow karta tha. Darta bohot tha mujhse lekin. Kabhi confront karne ki koshish nahi kiya usne. Haan chat karta tha Facebook pe aur insta pe. Ek din gaaon mein kuch land dispute hua toh ghar walon ko ek saal ke liye jana pad gya WB. Main akeli thi Ghar pe. Raat ke 2 baje samjh nahi aa raha tha kuch toh maine usko msg kia. Usne subah ko reply kia tha. Fir main boli coffee pila do yaar. Dost toh bann hi sakte hai hum. Hum gaye Office ke pas Wale ek coffee shop mein. Usne bataya kaise uski ex ne use 6½ saal ke relationship ke baad dump kia. Insaan woh bohot accha tha toh maine use bol diya ki mera ek boyfriend hai and hum agle 2 saal mein shadi karne ja rahe hai. Uska dil toot gya. Woh aansu control nahi kar paya, aur excuse me bolke bhaaga waha se. TBH mujhe laga woh sambhal lega khud ko but fir main office gayi, toh woh nahi dikha. Maine message kia toh double tick aya but usne seen nhi kiya. Mujhe laga sadma laga usko main mana lungi baad mein. Fir dophar ko message kia maine, toh ek tick bhi nahi aya. I was worried. Fir call bhi nahi utha raha tha woh. Uske dost ke pas gayi main, boli Koyal sun woh Ritvik na call na message ka response de raha hai. Boli same mujhe bhi, wese tum dono ke beech kya hua? I said kuch nahi and I left. 4 din beethe woh na office aya na respond Kiya. Fir 5th day maine dekha use. Pehle dekh ke Pehchan nahi payi. Uske pas uske dost the, sad lag raha tha, Koyal, Ashish, Sanju, Dilip and Disha. Yeh log use shayad console kar rahe the. Usne ek black color ki topi pehni hui thi aur clean shave kia tha usne. Maine socha space denge. But mujhe baad mein strike hua place pe Jake, fir bhaagi main uspe pas. Woh nahi tha place pe, fir gayi dhoondhte hue cafeteria toh chai pi raha tha. Main gayi pas, toh aya, hug kia aur bacche ki tarha roya. Sisak sisak ke. Main freeze ho gai lekin, samjh nahi aya kaise react Karu. Luckily koi nahi tha waha. Fir maine pucha, kya hua? Bola uske mom aur dad guzar gaye accident mein. Uss din coffee shop se ghar gaya toh woh log bole accha hua tu wapis aa gaya hum Shiridi ja rahe hai, ghar sambhal aur jiss bus mein gaye usme aag lag gai. Fir usne topi hatayi apni aur uske baad usne kya bola, I don’t know. Main ek taraf sympathize kar rahi thi but meri nazar uske smoothly shaven head pe thi. Dekh ke ek ajeeb si heartbeat tez ho gayi, mann kar raha tha ki haath rakhu uske takle pe but control kar rahi thi. Fir sweating hone lag gaya mujhe… Main fir waha se usko leke chali gayi niche parking mein.
Hum lift mein the, main uske takle ko hi ghoor rahi thi. Usne notice Kia aur topi wapis pehen li. Main boli sorry. Usne bola koi nahi… Abhi uska Mann nahi hain kuch bhi karne ka. And uss din waise bhaag Jane ke liye sorry. Usne bola usne papers daal diye ek mahine ke baad woh sheher chhorke ja raha hai. Wapis ghar. Mujhe bohot bura laga. Humne saath mein smoke kia thoda sa, fir uske baad main ghar chali gayi. Mere dimag mein bohot kuch chal raha tha, fir maine apne boyfriend ko call lagaya aur sab samjhaya. Uska ek hi question tha, tu sab chhor ke takla kyon ghoor rahi thi? I said, pata nahi ek strange feeling ayi. Mujhe shayad accha laga dekh kar. Woh hanske bola, ajeeb hain yaar tu bhi. Ek kaam kar tu bhi takli hoja, main bhi takla ho jata hu. (Laguhed loudly) And we started talking other stuff. Call cut karne ke baad yeh line mere dimag se ja nahi raha tha. I tried to forget it and sleep. Neend nahi ayi toh melatonin ki 2 goli kha kar so gayi. Subha uthke fir chai pike kanghi karte time yaad ayi meri boyfriend ki baatein. Maine socha ho jati hu, ek saal tak main akeli hoon, baal bhi acche se regrow honge, Ritvik ko bhi support milega, baal main daan kar dungi toh punya bhi milega. Maine decide kar liya. Ritvik ko call kiya 3 baar, usne nahi uthaya. Fir main apne padosi ke ghar gayi. Waha beauty parlour Wale Shubman aunty rehti hai. Maine TL ko message kia sick leave ke liye. Fir aunty boli beta 30 min mein dukaan kholungi. Fir maine wait Kiya, gayi toh aunty puche batao kya karana hai iss baar? Maine bola aunty mujhe takla kar do. Aunty chauk gaye bole kyon? Inne acche Baal hai apke. Mazak mat karo. Maine bola aunty sacch mein. Kar dijiye. Fir ek min break leke boli theek hai main kaun hoti hu, apke baal apki marzi. Batao machine lagana hai ya blade maaru? Maine bola blade lagaiye seedhe. Fir aunty dheere dheere ek shower spray se baal geele kar diye aur ek ustra le aye. Bole soch lo ek baar aur. Main boli aunty ab soch liya hai, kar do. Fir woh aage se, maathe se dheere dheere peeche shave karne lag gaye. Main khud ko dekh rahi thi mirror mein. Ek pal laga mera heart bohot tez ho gaya. Woh unke geele haath mere shaved scalp pe touch ho rahe the, woh kuch baal toot kr mere takle pe gir rahe the. Sacch mein alag si feeling thi. Fir dheere dheere karke pura sar ganja kar diya mera. Fir bole, ek baar reverse shave karke aftershave lagati hu ruko. Fir reverse shave karne lag gaye. Aur jab after shave lagaya toh jaan hi nikal gayi meri. Fir main dukaan se ghar helmet pehen ke aa gayi. Ake boyfriend ko call lagaya toh he was shocked. Woh gussa karne lag gaya, he is like main mazak kar raha tha, bakk ab tu baat mat kar mujhse. Sad part is Ritvik uss din apne Nana nani ke yaha chala gaya aur I never saw him after that. 1½ later Abhi meri shadi hai agle mahine. Iss baar I took permission from him ki shadi ke baad dono takle honge. It’s an unexplainable feeling.
